okay,, i give up,, i'll try to love u instead of hate you,,, :)

tak ada manusia yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali segala yang telah terjadi

kita pasti pernah dapatkan cobaan yang berat
seakan hidup ini tak ada artinya lagi

syukuri apa yang ada,,,
hidup adalah anugerah

tetap jalani hidup ini, melakukan yang terbaik,, :)

d'masiv - jangan menyerah

morniiinggg all,,,
setelah sehari yang gloomy kmarin,, akhirnya saya mampu melewati fase2nya Mr. Kubler Ross,, yah,, selesai sudah masa denial saya,, saya sudah masuk fase acceptance and im trying to be ready for next monday!! :D

setelah dipikir2,,,
ini adalah fase dalam hidup saya yang harus saya lalui,,
i've done a pretty good one before so why dont i just make another and another and,,,, another good one,, ^^

this morning, i got a messenger from anggit,, i said to her "God, i hate this" then she said " dont say that, the more you hate it, the more it'll hate you back"
hmm,, okay,, make sense,, kinda remind of "law of attraction"
and,,
yes,,
it make me think ,, "uh-oh,, what am i doing?"

then,,,
yaaa,, i think it wont be that bad,,
besides, i will enter to pediatric surgery first,,
one thing that make me feel excited coz i find "pediatric" words in front of it,, hahaha,,
a good early move i think,, *LOL*

maybe im suck in anatomy (this is also other reason why i dont have any interest in this dept),, maybe im not good in suturing things,,
but i'll learn,,
isnt that what we live for?
to learn things,,,

so,,,
yes,, i've made up my mind,, i'll try to love you instead of curse you,,
please dont let me down,,, ^^

surgery,, how i hate you so much now!

in an early beautiful morning,a friend of mine just called,,,
she said "im afraid u're not in a same group with him"
okay,,,
that's a problem,,,,
but not the biggest one, i guess,,,
and in turn im right coz she said,,,
"but u'll have yor intern on the last week,, so it maybe simultaneously with your exam"
dammit!

i REALLY DONT LIKE surgery dept.
i just dont like how they solve all the problem by open all that organs,,
it just my personal opinion,,,
i know that some disease insist us to do so,,
but still,, i dont like surgery things,, :(

huwaaahhh,, however i should pass this one,,
wish me luck!! ^^

here comes the nigmares,,, huhuhu,, T.T

huhuhuhu,,, finally tomorrow,,yes tomorrow,, aku bakal ujian mini C-ex.. actually,, ni baru pertama kali sih dalam sejarah DM diuji ma staf,, *ga kaya lab lain* huhhuhu,, dasar apes uda a baru dpt pasien tadi trnyt oh ternyata pasiennya dong pnyakitnya 3in1 which is,,, adeno-tonsilo-faringitis!
yep,, so she has a problems in her adenoid,tonsils and farynx,,menurutmuuu???
trus, not yet ended,, bsk aku di-tandem bareng 2 bocah lain whisch are mbak ike and brama,,huhuhu,, T.T dan kasus mereka ga kalah cihuy ,, Otitis media supuratif kronik MALIGNA dan punya mbak ike juga 3 in1 gt jd ada polip+sinusitis+alergi,,,huhuhhu,, soo sama aja gt bsk aku bakal ditanyain THT ksluruhan,,,
huhu,,, yang nguji aku pgn tau sapa Prof ira,,, huwaaaaaaaa,,,,, lengkaplah sudah duka nestapaku di THT ini,,, T.T

another bad day in ENT

huwaa,, entah mengapa puanas pol hari ini,, huks,,huks,,, sampe basah semua oleh kringet *halah* >.<
im still panick-ing nih huhuhu,,, apalagi tadi pake acara diumumin sgala nilai MCQ ku yg huancur,,grrr,,, masa ya diantara 19 org nilai plg tinggi cuma 68 paling rendah 40 troooosss,,, alhasil harus genjot responsi sm OSCE which is,,kita harus dpt 75 u/ masing2 ujian tsb,, which is why it,s so DAMN HARD to pass this department,, (-.-")
yah whatever happen,,,tetap sehat ,tetap smangat,, ^^
oya, satu lagi,,, gara2 ikanku yg mati kmaren aku yang jadi parno + OCD kumat,,, dikit2 ngecek ikan2ku,, "apa mrk sakit?apa mrk gpp?" why? because ikan2 lucu ituh yang ngasih brian jd aku harus berusaha memelihara mrk sbaik2nya,,,
i've tried my best sih,, yah smoga mereka akan panjang umur,,hahahaha,,, *g penting*
tadi pas pulang kuliah lgsg ngecek akuarium,,,hmmm rasanya mereka jadi lbh pucat --> panic mode:ON --> tapi takpikir2 lagi apa emang gara2 kna sinar yah mereka jd transparan,,, mau dbandingin ama yg lain ,, yg lain juga warnanya bgitu,,,hahahhahaha,, uda ah pusing,,,
aq mau ganti airnya si kolam kura2 aja,, :D
yg pasti hari ini KUDU blajar THT,, huh,,, cant wait to escape from there,,, wish me luck then,, (^^)v

what a life in ENT,, T.T

it's been almost 5 weeks aq jadi DM di ENT a.k.a ear nose throat dept @RSDS,,
n almost 5 weeks also i cant get focused,, huhuhu,,, T.T
kemaren jumat aja ujian MCQ (which for me, MCQ stands for: Migraine-causing Questions),, gila aja gitu ada 100 soal and i cant even answer 30 right answers,,, parah banget kan,, ?
huhuhuhu,,,
waar si tapi soalnya aku juga g blajar,,
hufff,,, tapi that's ok,, yang penting ntar si responsi sm OSCE HARUS sukses,,
smangat !!! ^^